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| Wanted to give a shout out to someone I consider a good friend that I grew up with back in Florida, Jason Rottler. Happy 40th Birthday, hope things are good with you! The stories we have from those wild years back in Westlake Village in Palm Harbor Florida will last me a lifetime. |
| Photo is of Jason Rottler (Left) this kid that dressed up like Santa Claus and Steve Larson – me- (Right). I remember Jason and I running over and sitting on this kid’s lap and someone snapped this photo. I believe it was our Sophomore year in High School so that makes it 1983 or 84. |
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Nikki’s 2nd Year Anniversary Party 0
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| Tonight I went over and shoot Nikki’s 2nd year anniversary party. Not that I am an event photographer, but it gave me a challenge to see if I could even shoot an event. I enjoyed shooting the hard artistic shoots like above, but had to really force myself to mingle and shot people on the dance floor. Especially since a fellow photographer friend Edizen didn’t show up – she has the personality for event photography – but I bite the bullet and simply shot away. More pictures are on my Flickr account. |
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40th Birthday 0
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| Well, my fortieth birthday was today – don’t feel any older – but just saying forty sucks. Plus everytime I go to MySpace it just puts it right in your face. Over all it was not a real interesting day. I went for a bike along the beach, then took a walk along the beach. Later on I met up with my friend Angelica and her brother for a drink at Nikki’s. Then after that I met up with a bartender of Nikki’s at the Town House. |
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Full ‘Dream’ Sail 0
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| Had a very vivid dream last night that brought questions to me when I woke up. If anyone really knows me they know I loved my time at Full Sail Real World Education, and I am very fond of Garry Jones and Isis Jones as they are a large part of Full Sail. Not to mention incredibly nice and endearing people. |
| So in my dream I found myself at the on the Full Sail campus, as of current day, so there was many new things I wanted to see. I was there on one of there Open House days, the first Sunday of every month the campus opens it’s doors to the public to see what the school has to offer. |
| But over all I wanted to meet up with and see Garry and Isis. As I was walking around the campus I saw a large group of people, in the center was Garry and Isis. Now every time I have met up with them in the past they have been happy to see me, or at least acted like they were glad to see me — but they have remembered me after all these years. When I walked up to them in my dream. They knew me, but acted as if they wished I wasn’t there. I immediately felt out of place and began to leave. Then Garry put his hands out asked me to take this over to the retail shop and exchange it for cash. It was two handfuls of change, pennies, nickels, dimes… But then he said don’t tell anyone what you are doing. Now hurry up. One I had no idea what or where the retail shop was, but as usual for me I simply took on the task and figured I find a way to do it. |
| Then as I began to walk across the campus, I ran into old classmates who wanted to say hi and talk. The first thing that came to mind is that I had to do this thing for Garry, but I couldn’t say anything and I really didn’t want to blow off my friends. So I was trying to figure a way to talk as quick as I could to move on. After a number of people walking up to me I finally figured out where the retail store was — but when I walked up to the counter I couldn’t find the change Garry gave me. I freaked out and thought about literally taking my personal cash out to take back to Garry. I opened my wallet to find no cash in it… then woke up all disoriented and wondered as I always do – did that mean anything, or was that just a really strange dream. Because if it didn’t mean anything then why do we dream? |
Car Detailed 0
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| I finally went and got the car professionally detailed. It costed a couple bucks, but se looks so pretty now. It started out that I needed to get the engine steamed cleaned so they can find my oil leak – so why not spend a little more and get the whole car detailed? |
Surfer Girl Reference Photos 0
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| Took photos of Margeau Bull today in reference of the Pussycat Surfer Girl picture on the wall at the bar Nikki’s. Which will be my next sculpture project. |
10 Days Left Till It’s Over 0
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| No, I don’t think it will be over, but the way I think about things will change once I hit my 40th birthday April 27. All my other birthdays I never thought twice about — my 30th I did take note of where I was and what I was doing, but from my recent move to California and new work I felt I was doing fine. Add ten years to that and I am not happy with my life. In that ten years I have not made any achievements. Though I had my share of failures. Disastrous failures and loses. Am I embarrassed that I am back in school now, instead of being ask to be an instructor of a career I should be a master at. No – the computer world of art is a fast pace one, and to really take root and understand the changes thats hard work and an understanding of the field. Changing a career at this point in life is not unusual. Plus I look at it as a move up, going from manipulating still images to manipulating moving ones. Which I am finding through Gnomon’s and fxphd. Though I find it funny that the more I get myself involved visual effects for the movies and TV – I also notice that I have found myself sneaking a peek back into the fine art scene. Tracking down galleries in the Los Angeles area to maybe show and exhibit my work ‘10% of Me‘. Of course I don’t feel I am anywhere ready for a show, but now that I believe I can do both. I will be working towards that. |
| I think the best birthday present I could give myself is to figure a way to eliminate or at least block the loneliness I feel. It has been 15 years since my last girlfriend and I haven’t been a on real date since 2002 so that longing to be with someone to share time together, talk, walks on the beach, just to have someone you know is thinking about you, and to be there when they need you. Well, that is all nice in the movies or TV, but it doesn’t work in my reality. In my reality I have been cut down and have had my heart ripped out and spit on. So if I could somehow remove that whole ‘empty’ part of my life, the wanting, the touch, the despair, the anger, the love, and shift that wasted energy to learning and creating some new art – whether it’s with a piece of clay, paper, camera, on a computer or film. Simply create and keep doing it. Every piece does not have to be a masterpiece, as for each piece you do builds upon the last. |
| The next 10 days are going to be a retrospect of how I got here over the past 40 years… |
Morning Commute 0
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| Each morning for over 9 years I have made the commute from Venice Beach to Hollywood. Usually taking the 10 Freeway to Fairfax or La Brea Ave, and each morning I face an a abundance amount of traffic and waste so much time driving 14 miles. |
| n the morning I have listen to a variety of radio programs. Including Jamie Frosty and Frank, Mark and Brian, Jamie and Danny, Valentine in the morning, and Kevin and Bean. |
| Years ago I enjoyed listening to Jamie Frosty and Frank, then Danny Bonaduce was introduced in 1999, but they kept on Jamie White who was unabashedly rude and loud, and that screwed everything up for me. She reminded me of white trash, but enjoyed the unpredictable things that came out of Danny’s mouth. In fact I met him at Fredrick’s of Hollywood on Hollywood Blvd on one of the radio show’s promotion. He’s a cool guy, a little mixed up, but cool. Once Danny got fired from the radio show I stopped listening and that show went straight down hill. Apparently Danny Bonaduce also filed suit against Jamie White on September 2005 for allegedly slandering him on air while he was in rehab. He claims she lied about him showing up to work under the influence of drugs. I never heard of the outcome of that or don’t really care to. |
| Mark and Brian are always a go-to, Mark Thompson and Brian Phelps debuted at KLOS back in September 1987, though I didn’t start listening to them till 2003. But lately I find that Mark is the only one that finds Brian’s funny. There older stuff is good and has it’s humor, but what there dishing out now is two old men that think they’re funny. |
| would like the new program ‘Valentine in the Morning’, but they play a lot of music and when I do tune in it seems like Valentine is just talking about some product placement. So I don’t tune in very much. |
| Then there is Kevin and Bean who out of all of them now listen to the most. Kevin Ryder and Gene “Bean” Baxter debuted on KROQ on December 31, 1989, but again I didn’t start listening to them till like 2001. They are strange yet humorous, but I only like maybe about 10% of the music KROQ plays, and they play an entire song after each advertisement in their morning program. Which is why I bounce around and listen to the others. |
Early Summer Day 0
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| I finally broke free from the computer and walked outside to scope out an area to shoot the reference photos for the surfer girl sculpture that Margeau Bull is going to help with me. As I was out and Margeau called me to let me know that she could meet me at 5pm. I had to run back in pump some air in my tires of my bicycle and go for the first ride of the year. Now I am not sure why but I think there is an auto pilot in my head, because it doesn’t matter if it’s my first ride or my 101st ride I always seem to at least ride to Hermosa Beach. Of course this first ride around the 25 mile mark I began to ache a little, but I can’t remember the last time I went for a ride. |
| When I got back I felt good and the second I laid down I took a deep afternoon nap for an hour. Got up and took a walk along the beach. But soon got a call that Margeau got called into work and we had to reschedule. |
| I thought about the whole hanging out at Sidewalk, but ever since I washed my wallet and finally reported my debit card missing last Friday. I have to cash on hand. SoI went home and did the watching TV thing. For some reason I have been watching the History channels AX Men. |
Out for ONE Beer 0
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| After a crazy day of work at the lab in Hollywood and a long commute home sitting in traffic. Why not go out, I wanted to change things up so I decided walk over to Venice Sidewalk cafe and get ONE beer during happy hour then get back to my home projects. Well I walked into the bar and I found my neighbor/friend Dan Kacvinski there at the end of the bar. We began talking and one beer turned into two, then three, four, five. Then the shots started coming one, two, three etc… Well, I was feeling no pain by now and it was time to go home, well, in a drunken haze I decided that I was hungry and that I was going over to Nikki’s ——– oh, what a bad idea. I remember ordering and eating a beach wrap, but then it’s all fuzzy. I haven’t been drunk like that in quite some time. |